Repent, then, and turn to God, so that your sins may be wiped out, that times of refreshing may come from the Lord.
Acts 3:19 NIV
Repentance is a choice, but just like the scripture says should turn you to God. I have the tendency to repent for people and not God. I go into many dtimes and can be thinking of what to say and how to act so that I can put on a good image in front of the guys there. With that in mind, I had no desire to learn. I was given input and discipling that was valid, but also forced me to hear truths about myself that I didn’t want to hear. I mainly felt embarrassed and insecure about everything, and I didn’t rely on God, but instead focused on what the guys were thinking about everything going on with me.
 Godly sorrow brings repentance that leads to salvation and leaves no regret, but worldly sorrow bring death.
2 Corinthians 7:10 NIV
This scripture is one that I have to remember daily. I have to always keep in mind that I can be more concerned about how my peers view me, and usually get down on myself and only think about how I look, and also feel sorry for myself. What is Godly sorrow? It’s seeing how what you’ve done and realizing how it’s affecting God, and also your personal relationship with him. As disciples, this is what we need to work to sustain, because like the scripture says, it brings repentance. It’s definitely hard for us teenagers to think about God daily, considering that we are engulfed by the world as soon as we step on a high school campus!
Learning how to have Godly sorrow and repent has definitely had a positive influence on me in the past month. I was discouraged at the idea that I would not be a y-intern and not help out at the middle school camp this year, but I am grateful for the opportunities God is putting in my life this summer. One of them is being a web intern. This is a huge responsibility and I have never been apart of anything like it. God has also helped work on building my relationships on honesty. My parents are starting to slowly trust me more, the y-leaders in my county and the teen disciples are able to know more about me and help me realize my purpose as a disciple, and I definitely feel my faith and desire for God grow. I have a lot of growing to do, but I can honestly say that I have a desire to repent for my relationship with God and not just my peers.